Sincerely my heart aches from the absence and space I have created between you and me though unintended. Today you showed me how empty I am without you. As I walked home alone, I longed for the days you and I shared, those moments when you directed every step I made even before I set foot to the unknown, those moments when everything concerning me was predestined. You knew my name while I was still an embryo; even before my ears formed I heard you say these words to me: “May My WISDOM and EXCELLENT SPIRIT LIVE in EVERY part of YOU” and so you named me WESLEY.
You made me believe more in you when I called and you replied. I miss me making mistakes; and making mistakes even when you were with me; because from the mistakes I thought I made you taught me and gave me the necessary experience I needed in life. I still remember years ago when life was tough and harsh on me; I was penniless, I cried to you and threw your word back at you of how you said you created and own the universe and how much you can supply all my needs; so by Philippians 4:19 how can I be poor when the universe belongs to my Father, but you simply laughed. You told me Life is not harsh on me, you wanted me to learn how to manage and save the little I have; you made it so I will learn to spend wisely when the grand Overflow comes.
I was so foolish and ignorant not knowing you wanted me to learn how to manage the blessings you have for me in the future. That is just one out of a thousand lessons you have taught me.
Father, I remember all of them; but when I walked home today you were not with me. I did not feel you with me, and each minute of your silence caused my heart to weep.
My ignorance made me leap backwards when you reached out your hands toward me, disobedience has blindfolded me, the weight of sin has crippled me – I missed my steps while walking alone.
All I ask is you give me a little of the grace in 2Corinthians 8:9 which you said will be my new identity.
Father, forgive me; like your son Jesus taught me forgiveness and gave me a kind heart, for I am convinced that such virtue flows in the Trinity. Forgive me. For my sake. Forgive me.
From your son,
Wesley West is a Nigerian-born poet and model. He loves God and has a passion to use his gifts to reveal God to the world. Follow Wesley West on facebook and Instagram 👇
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